I've got SOMETHING to say...
im back again.... ahahs.. guess what.. i will not be staying at my uncle's house until this sat anymore.... becos... erm.. i cant stand it anymore.. it is not about his house.. but is that i cant take it cos my face is very dirty.. as in.. my face is not clear..ahahs... thats why i wanna go home... ^^ wheee... my home sweet home is on the way... wait for me.. my home!!! ahahas...
- up to THE FEELING of:
content
- up to THE FEELING of:
uncomfortable
- up to THE FEELING of:
drunk
it all happened juz ytd...when i was feeling very moody..as usual..mood swing all of a sudden..during english..we were ask to say out de answers for each question..i did answer..but in a very ass manner...and i think mrs tan found something was wrong n after everything..she came forward to me... at tt time...i was alrdy sobbing without anyone noeing..not even my friend sitting beside me..cos i was lying my head against de table n was facing de outside.. so..my teacher came forward..n she asked me wat was going on..n...for no reason...i started to breakdown and cry...i could stop crying..it just keep going on n on...it was very hard for me to control..once i start crying...it is not easy for me to stop..i will keep going on..i think i can simply flood areas..lol...jkjk..
but i felt terrible... my teacher actually ask me to stop crying..but it was real hard..it took me bout almost 10 mins to slow down... n another min to break down n cry again...lol..actually i didnt want to tell her my problems..it is not tt i enjoy keeping all my problems within myself..but is tt i dk how to express them and let them go..i dont like to share my problems with other ppl..cos i think tt it is like i m carry my loads to de next person n tt person had to care for me alot..i wanted to be myself..be independent...i didnt like sharin my problems..n tt was why i broke down all of a sudden n cried..cos de burdens on me were pressuring on me n i couldnt take it any longer.. i cried for at least 1 period..which was 30 mins.. n my teacher n friends were comforting me...when i finally said all my main problems to my english teacher...she was like saying it is actually too much for a fiften year old teenager to worry to de extend..i do agree too..but i cant do anything..
so now i m trying to adapt to take each thing step by step..so i will not stress myself so easily anymore... but i feel much better for de period of time..but after some time.. i will have mood swing again n start to reload my burdens n break down n cry again..it is a whole of my mood swing cycle..lol
- up to THE FEELING of:
frustrated
reaching out for his love...deeply in love- where to be FOUND:toilet..
- up to THE FEELING of:
drained - ROCK on with:f.t island - first kiss
sexy...lols..- where to be FOUND:room
- up to THE FEELING of:
confused - ROCK on with:a man in love - super junior
...at the starting..i m the type of person who only listen to english musics on radio..but now i m trying to learn their lyrics and korean...although i do not really understand their meaning of the songs...but i do understand if i read their english lyrics^^.. now i m listening to them everyday...i listen to them everywhere i go...i listen to them on my radio...my mp3..my comp...lols^^ i can listen to their album over again in a day...for about 5 - 6 times a day..serious..i will do the singing everyday too..lols..^^i m so in love wit their songs....i do enjoy their songs...all thanks to my friend..clare..now my sis and i are crazy over them.. and at the starting..my sis will go online to find pics of them n informations of them..n she will even go all the way to dig out all their dirty secrets...lols..i will be listening to them everyday...when i m nt on the comp..i will listen to them on my radio..n if i m on the comp..like now..i will listen to them on my comp..n if i m nt home...i will listen to them on my mp3....i m so into their songs for now...but i noe tt cant stick to them forever...there will be a time i will let go of them n carry on wit other things..^^yea..
oh my...school is starting soon...i don want to go back to school.. i hate it.. rush for my bus everyday...go to school and do almost the something for everyday...i have nt really enjoy my holidays n school is starting so soon...T_T i don like to go sch becos i don like exams...i m scare when it come to test..cant take it..so stressful.. i also hate those camp things organise for the sch at the beginning of sch month..(except for the sec4)
things r changing from wat i see...i m changing too..^^lols.. as in my personality...i m starting to isolate myself from others.. i don noe why too...i don really like to talk that much as before..i m also having mood swing..that sound rather scary for me... i also don like to ask ppl to do things for me...i prefer to be alone... do thing all by myself.. do i count as growing up? i m not sure too...
- where to be FOUND:on my sis bed
- up to THE FEELING of:
crushed - ROCK on with:suju - song for you
for all i know was that i went for tuition this afternoon and after my tuition...came home and then went to a nearby coffee shop to have our dinner...my sundays are always boring... and when i go for my tuition...it seem like all my sundays seems the same...take a bus to my destination..go to the mall...and straight goes to the lilbrary...standard..i will NEVER borrow storybooks.. ONLY english magazines..ha.. dont know why... so..after borrowing magazines...i will go for my tuition lesson..but sometimes..if i dont have the mood to step into the class...i will..drag my time until like about 10 to 15 mins late.. then go for my tuition..^-^
oh my..my tuition started since last week... 4DAYS in a row...AHHHH... 1st-->sunday-->chinese tuition
see... and worst of all..there is homework... so it is like.. i had to rush to complete them cause most of the time i am on the comp..or esle i will be lazing around...dont feel like doing my assignments...anyway..i have assignments given to me this week and i am suppose to complete it and hand up next tuesday...but i have not even started doing...lol..
- where to be FOUND:in bro's room..pc
- up to THE FEELING of:
just had my shower - ROCK on with:the reason why - the click five
but the way...
FAREWELL MY SEC 4S...
- where to be FOUND:my room..using pc
- up to THE FEELING of:
thirsty - ROCK on with:no music
alright people...i am back again... since i have got nothing to do...i had something to show everyone... he is a cool guy with AMAZING EYES...have the look, have the kind of attractive eyes...loving it...so in love with his eyes... it is the pair of eyes that makes him stands out... an ordinary guy with a pair of beautiful eyes...alright...i simply love the way he look... and.. he even INSPIRE ME to be a photography.. how cool... he is the one that makes me dream too much...not dream of him..but dream of plenty of things like...'I WANT TO BE LIKE HIM.. THE WAY HE LOOK.. THE PREFECT FEATURE HE HAD... HAVE THAT KIND OF EYES...HAVE 2 PIERCING UNDER MY LOWER LIP(JUST LIKE HIM)...HAVE THAT KIND OF FRINGE THAT HE IS HAVING...AND MANY OTHER THINGS....' he even make me wonder...'why must i be born in this tropical island...why cant i be an american..so i will not need to study so much... just chase my dream to be someone like him...' it is just too much for me..the gravity is killing me...(stress over so many things...not about study..but about going to america and be like those people there...) alright... enough of talking... i will show you all how he look like..oh and ya..he is ALEX EVAN...interesting name...
PICS ON HIM--->ALEX EVAN
so..how do you think about him..ya...cool...it is nice to have a guy like him that look punk but is not the naughty type...if i could be just like him...i can just only wonder...T-T*
**ALEX EVAN**
- where to be FOUND:bro's room
- up to THE FEELING of:
the weather..wu... - ROCK on with:i'll take my chance - the old click five..
ARTIST: BOYS LIKE GIRLS...
SONG: THUNDER LYRIC
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder
this MAYBE my last entire....until i dont noe when...but i MAY come back to claim my live journal..hehe...sick of it and for the time being...
and...ya... about my 'camp' at my uncle's house.. and about the pics taken on those days...erm...i think i will not put it up... cos i am damn lazy to put it up.. but now i feel like dumping my live journal and create a blogspot for myself...but..i think if i were to have a blogspot account ...i will do the same thing after a short period of time...haha...serious...
aright...will be leaving my live journal for the time being...but will be back...
i rather not have a blog or a live journal for myself...
- where to be FOUND:my room..using pc
- up to THE FEELING of:
numb - ROCK on with:how i go - yellowcard
this is the second day of my 'camp' at my uncle's house. oh my.. now i am starting to miss my home..my parents..my bed and everything in my house..haha.. now i am so fresh and clean after my shower...before that i was feeling sticky and dirty all over.. but now..ah..so comfortable..what the fork.. yesterday...after eating my satay supper..i was climbing up the stairs when i... STEPPED ONTO A BABY LIZARD..oh my..it was so gross..i cant stand the feeling when i stepped on it.. and worse of all..i was bare footed. i started screaming like hell.. about the bbq..erm.. it was kind of bore...but with the help of my cousins' jokes and laughter,it kinds of brighten up for me..we had lots of food.. we had roti prata, sotong, chicken wings, sausages, mee siam, mee goreng and many other food i cant really recall..hee..after my cousins and my parents left... all four of all (my bro,sis,cousin and me) cleaned the roof top where we had our bbq.. we clean like crazy.. to be frank with you peoples..i think that i am about to grow fat when i stay at my uncle's house..cause everyday i had been eating potato chips.. every night going for supper to eat roti prata..tell me like that will grow fat easily...am i right?hehe.. now i am feeling that my tummy is popping out..
i think after this 'camp' i will have to start doing exercise to keep myself fit.. ya like real.. i alway say but never do so.. T-T.. alright.. but for the time being.. i cant load the pics on comp..so only when i reach my own home.. i will load the pics on my lj.. still got 1 1/2 more days before i will be back home...aw..my home...
- where to be FOUND:using my uncle's pc
- up to THE FEELING of:
tired - ROCK on with:nothing for the time being
i am currently at my uncle's...'camping' there for 4 days 3 nights..but my uncle isnt at home,he went overseas for some business trip and will be back by this saturday... so my aunt is home..and we can do anything we want at their house.. at least there is freedom over here..haha... i am not the only one 'camping' here.. other then me..my bro,sis and a cousin of mine are staying over too..we are enjoying ourselves and tomorrow we will be having bbq..together with my other cousins..so tomorrow we will be waking up earlier to go and buy all the things we need to start the bbq..alright..i will keep updating on the 'camp' i am having now..pics will be updated till then..bye..i am going for some satays now with my aunt,siblings and cousin for now..
- where to be FOUND:at my aunt's house
- up to THE FEELING of: good
- ROCK on with:currently nothing
HAVE THE IDEAS... HAVE THE CREATION
ai ya.. today early in the morning was force to wake up to go school just because of the forking choir camp..boring is all i can describe about the camp..not well organize and to be frank...i was also force to play stupid games that make me look.. ya.. like...whatever..then later, the leaders let us watch this movie..called the... i dont know what title is that.. but it is all about singing choral.. oh...there is this boy that look like an angel through his look,but is a devil inside..as in not emo that type..is look innocent on the look but damn naughty.. he sang well..look cute.. that is why i fell for him..(shy..) but this was the very first time i had enjoy a movie about choral..it is seriously a fabulous show.. but sadly, i went to toilet with jesse, then when went back..the movie already ended..then dont know what is the ending. (*sob) after that was our lunch..kk.. then we had singing for about 30 mins and play games again.. alright..the second round games are much more fun then the first one.. the camp actually end at 8.30pm.. but i and jesse left early cause we had to leave..haha* that was all i can tell you all for the day.. the rest are private..wahahaha*
by the way..tomorrow i will be going to my uncle's house to camp there..until saturday..ya..cant wait for tomorrow to come..
- where to be FOUND:bro's room
- up to THE FEELING of: all thanks to the choir camp
- ROCK on with:grow up - simple plan
here are the pics..(please try to ignore pics of me.. cos i look rather weird)
me my sis and my cousin. ^^
oh..and this is me..see. i look like an a~~hole..the person at the back is my cousin's bf.. look kind of weird with me like that and he like that.
this is my sis and my cousin. ha..see.. they look sweet together.
any other pic of my sis with my cousin again..kiss kiss ha..
oh.. sis and cousin AGAIN.. why they take so many..so ai mei..
oh my..i feel so awakard..erm..see..got one present behind of us(my sis headband) ha..
here goes again..my cousin and sis again.. most of the pics are two of them..haha.. cos i don want to take..
- where to be FOUND:at the living room..using laptop
- up to THE FEELING of:
the days are driving me crazy - ROCK on with:some weird songs on radio 98.7
- where to be FOUND:home lo..
- up to THE FEELING of: my bed..
- ROCK on with:happy ending - mika
- where to be FOUND:in my room
- up to THE FEELING of: with the things i get
- ROCK on with:when i.m gone - simple plan
Oh..and i cant wait for next wed to come..cos i am going out with my clasmates to east coast to have a ride n smell de fresh air... Lets pray that that day will be a blessed day..so it will not downpour. ( ~'-'~ )
- where to be FOUND:under the roof
- up to THE FEELING of: bored
- ROCK on with:say goodnight - the click five
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